My Response: Sarah Kay: If I should have a daughter...

It was a very late, settled night and I was alone in my living room while my husband and daughter were asleep in the other room, when I, (what seemed to come to me in the most perfect time in my life) stumbled upon this video on Youtube. Sarah Kay's words touched me so deeply that I know that it will be forever embedded in my soul. One specific and profound part of her spoken word that seems to have pierced my heart with so much hope and ease was when she said instead of being guarded, trying to prevent yourself from all the pain and struggles of life, try to accept them with open hands. Let them fall and then embrace them, deal with them. When she said this, is what like a weight was lifted off my back and fear just subsided. There has been so many things going on in my life involving my family, my finances, my dreams, my career, the world & all the crazy things that are taking place in it and mostly within myself. I started to question God and becoming angry with him, asking WHY? Why do so many people have to suffer, especially those who don't deserve it? The whole earthquake in Japan and the fears of the our government collapsing; it's all the worry and fear of having to endure the destruction. What is next to happen? I think about my love ones, how I wouldn't even bear to imagine any of them being hurt. I was so tired of all the negative things that have been going on and what is so ironic about it all is that I found myself becoming negative. I didn't want any more negativity, yet I was creating it within myself. I started to drink more alcohol, trying to numb myself to this negativity, for it gave me, (even in its short lifetime) a piece of happiness. But at the end of it all, it can never be define as happiness because short term happiness can NEVER be true happiness. I felt like I had no one, not even my own husband. I felt that he was avoiding me and I don't blame him looking back at it because I made the home an unpleasant one. Who would want to be surrounded by anger and negativity? But since he wasn't there to save me, to lift me out of all this depression like a person who loves someone does, I resented him. After watching this film, really taking it in and remembering it in moments of despair has help me lift thses burden off my own shoulders. No one can help you unless you want to be helped. I never understood that more than I do now. YOU have to deal with it. No one can take it all away for you, YOU have to change. It all starts with you. What Sarah Kay was trying to tell, (what seemed like exclusively to me) was that things are going to happened and those things can be bad, but it is all about how you handle them. We can fight it until we are black and blue or we can accept it, deal with it and then move on. I want to choose to accept these things because I've tried fighting it, avoiding it and everything else in the book, but haven't actually tried accepting it. I never felt so much peace in my life as I do now. Whatever God has in store for me or for anyone regarding this world, I accept it. I accept the destruction, the death, the lost and all the bad things that is to come because I know that God has a bigger plan. I have faith in Him for he knows best for me and everyone in this world. I accept this, deal with it through my faith in God and then let it go for it is not my burden to carry. I look at my daughter now and know even more that He has a great plan, for he had a plan for me to be the best mom I am suppose to be to her. I want to teach my daughter all the things I know including and especially what I learned in Sarah Kay's , If I should have a daughter...